On January 20, 2013, I was morbidly obese. I had a BMI of 44.4 and trouble getting up the stairs.
Then panic attacks changed how I thought of emotions. By learning how to deal with fear I learnt how to deal with hunger. On December 24, 2013, I had lost 160 lbs. Not by dieting, not through surgery, but simply by accepting pain.
I wrote a book about that experience: Let Go. Order ‘Let Go’ here, or read a preview. If you’re Dutch, you may be interested in this newspaper article about my book.
After losing the weight I started travelling. Here are some stories from the road.
My chance of attaining a normal weight without surgery was 1 in 1,290. My doctor pushed me to consider the procedure. Then the panic attacks came. They changed everything. I didn’t see a surgeon, or a nutritionist. I consulted a psychologist.
There are many reasons for being overweight. Mine was an inability to let go of pain, of worries, and of fear. Food helped me numb my brain so I could continue to live with emotions that hurt me harder the more I tried to resist them.
Until the inevitable happened. Until my panic attacks taught me how to let go.
Order the Kindle version or the paperback through Amazon. If you’re in the Netherlands, you can also order here, or ask your friendly local bookstore to order it for you.
Not convinced yet? Read the preview! Thanks for your time!
Before I tell you how my car and I ended up in a 9 feet deep ditch, stuck in about a feet and a half of snow, I need to tell you about the cake I bought just before that happened.
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